Today i woke up having a hard time breathing… I woke up sweating the last 3 days. I kinda felt like i was going to die. Right now is a time when I would usually need my friends and family… who stuck around? My family… my mom. I would like to say that my friends besides 1 SUCK. While I’m here suffering from respiratory depression all of you guys are out just getting high and really not worried one bit and sooo I am shutting myself out. No more friends being my priority, i’m my own priority and so is my health. I don’t want to be a stoner who doesn’t care about anything other than weed just like ALL you guys. All you care about is the next time you will smoke and you say you have goals that quite frankly haven’t been reached, yet. No more procrastinating for me. I need to make plans and set goals for myself that i know i can reach no matter what the challenge. I know that when a friend is in need, i will be there. But you weren’t there. None of you guys are there. I find that weed is the only way to hang out with people nowadays… I can make a phone call or text: “Let’s hang out!”… Reply: “O but i don’t have any bud” or “Do you have weed?” like WTF!? Does it matter!? That goes for people i was supposed to see in SF. There were 5 days… 5 DAYS that you could’ve seen me but instead you bailed. Literally, EVERYONE bailed except for Lexi… She’s my one main best friend. I know she has my back sober or not sober. She’s the only person i really care about. It was fun while it lasted, people, but now know that I will only surround myself with people who share the same interests as me and share the same dreams. I’m gonna stop smoking so much and I’m going to only hang out with people who enjoy my company. I need to get on my A game and get my amazing singing voice back. It’s not weed I’m taking to Hollywood with me, it’s my voice and if i waste my time with people like you guys then I will never reach my goals. So there you have it. More family time, less friend time… and less smoking, more singing. I’m onto bigger and better things. Soon enough i’ll be out of this desert again and wish the best and same for you all.